Fonts: AL Aunt Marie & AL Cadence

Journaling:

Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers...
When Daddy and I found out that our second child was on the way, I began to pray. How strongly I felt, the mother's sixth sense, an intuition, that a little girl would complete our family. I prayed each day, for a calm, peaceful existence; one free from turmoil, and strife, so that our little girl could mature in the sanctuary within me; and know the loving sound of her family's voices. I prayed to God that my intuition was right. For twenty-two weeks I remained peacefully pregnant, and despite the morning sickness, I tried to rest and fill my days with relaxing moments. Quiet walks with Daddy. Stories about magical places with your brother. Lunch with your Nana. And , I prayed. Into your twenty-third week we journeyed...faced with an ultrasound that would change my existence. My intuition had been wrong. God hadn't answered my prayers. How could this be? Another boy? Oh, the betrayal I felt, not towards God, but towards your brother. How could I betray him so badly as to bring another little boy into our world. My plan involved two children, a boy and a girl, a matched set. How naive I was to think there couldn't be room for another.

Resolved to the new plan for me, I prayed to God. Familiar words taught to me by your Nana, to bring the peace and the light back in....God, grant me the serenity, to except the things I cannot change...the courage to change the things I can...and the wisdom to know the difference. And the peace came, and flowed through me. I knew that I was scared...that I'd spent over half of my pregnancy preparing for someone you weren't. And I prayed again...to discover the someone that you were. The day came, you came to us, and I looked into your big blue eyes, full of the peace and light I'd prayed to be bestowed on my child, and I felt my heart swell with the joy of you. And then and there I thanked God for the gifts in my life...for the unanswered prayers...because if my prayers had been answered...I wouldn't have the joy of knowing you.

So, my sweet little boy...when you think you've found your heart's desire...and you pray for the strength to help it happen...just remember...

Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. -Garth Brooks "Unanswered Prayers"

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